October 22, 2010
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i’m a writer
that’s it
that’s alli have nothing else to give you
i do art
art does methe only time i’m happy
is when my hands are working
looking
searchingfor something else to create
for something else to touchi’m a writer
i have no people skills
i have no life skills
i only want to do one thingand that’s write
create
shape
designand redesign
take pictures
take meaning
and add new meaning to thati have no interest
in normal jobs
normal people
or normal friendsi have no interest
in what you say
or how you say iti’m self involved
self inflicted
and fucked up
in ways i can’t even begin to explain to youi’m a writer
a failure on every level
of what society deemsjustifiable
acceptable
or respectablei do not want
ask for
or give
anything backto anyone
except what need be
what has to be
what should bebut could always end up being
a complete
and utter messi’m a writer
an artista poor one
a tired one
a bad one
and a good onedepending on what day
what hour
or what minute
you decide to catch me ini hate phone calls
extra chit chat
or the bullshit that comes
with everything being nowright now
not later
not in a few minutesbut last week
and i don’t care
what you say
who you are
or what you doif you wear a suit
i probably hate you
or laugh at you
or could care less about youif you live in a cube
good for you
not for mebut good for you
i can’t do it
won’t do it
tried to do itbut you do it
for me
for usfor all the writers
that can’t stand
9 to 5but love 12 to 2
or 11 to 4
or 10 to 3or whatever late night manic work session
gets you throughas you smoke
drink
cuss
and look for some meaningbehind your words
besides sex
besides failed relationships
or how small your penis isor whatever useless social agenda
your pushing this week
this year
this timeas opposed to the next one
and the one after thati’m a writer
an artist
an idioti write
that’s all i doi’m sorry
i really ammaybe next time
i’ll have moreto give
to offer
to place in front of youprobably not.
Comments (15)
whatever you are doing- do it whole souled….I read that in a bible somewhere. I disagree with your assessments- you have people skills, yuou have social obligations to you and your family t5hat imperfect your are a world better than what someone else has without you. you write – you create art. I have a suckling kitty making the most of my elbow :S. but now it’s the other useless elbow.
I fucking love this<3 Oh. My. God. Never, and I mean neve, have I read something that really just hit home as much as that did. You have encompassed everything I truly think in my own fucked up head about the art of writing. I wish I could rec this at least 10 times. xP
i can relate to this a bit, except i think my version would’ve had a lot more cussing. lol. great piece.
Outstanding! This is really expressive. Most of it is about me. I identified with this a lot. Way to go!
deep to the core
*Raises glass* We’ve got to invent a secret handshake, brother.
Oh, I am so relieved you didn’t mention people who work behind front desks! Whew!
Seriously, Thomas, don’t apologize for being a writer. You’re an amazing one and haven’t fucked up. Really,you haven’t. Keep doing what you’re doing and we’ll keep reading!
@jacksoncroons - sounds good, i’m all for the secret handshake, you just tell me how it goes. lol. of course we could just drink to it.
@designandart - thanks i’m glad you liked it. it’s a bit of a rant but it makes it’s point. i think.
@d_m_riggs - you know, when i was writing it i thought about you, and said ” i wonder if riggs will like this, naw probably not enough swearing.” lol. glad you dug it.
@thomas_michael - I like the point it makes and yeah, you are thinking right. I’ve heard that we are not islands and I’ve heard we are islands. I think it’s that we are. Marriage, though is the one thing that will make two into one. Not that I’m asking you to marry me, I’m a guy , too. Anyway, it’s obvious you have been through some life.
@MyHomeIsWriting - you are too kind for words. i appreciate all your feedback and support. i’m grateful that you stop by and always have something to say. thanks so much.
loving the honesty.
Hmm, I’ve got a 9 to 5 job now and I love it so far. Damn, I can’t be a writer anymore. lol
No, seriously. I like this piece. You’re not a failure. And you’re a great writer, it doesn’t matter which minute I catch you in.
i love your style. i like how you add little things after the blunt things haha, it gives a very good effect. example: if you live in a cube
good for you
not for me
but good for you
that was my favorite:}